A promise to her...

I promise u... After I finish writing this, I'll try n smile... I'll still try to make my life worthy of living and smiling... Though that tear shall always remain in the deepest corner of my eye... My smile shall never fade... If you ask me to forget you... I'll ask you why should I... You are the most beautiful thing that ever happened to me, nothing can take that place... Memories of our good times and of our bad ones too... I'll cherish them forever... The moments we laughed, The moments we shed tears, The ones when we fought and swore never to see each other's face ever again... And after that? The moments we spent in our arms... How can I let go of them? No I cannot... I promise you that I'll walk with the same stride I always have... With the same fire inside me to conquer the world...

I don't want to stop writing this to you... I really don't want to, cuz after I finish writing this... I'll have to stop these tears and smile honestly... They feel so good after a long time... I really find it hard to smile, But I will... I promise you... I will always love u and somewhere deep within me I'll be the same person you really loved...

The importance of Today...

"Your honest attempt to bring smiles on their faces will always remain the reason for you to smile..."

This line shall always, always, be my motivation for taking up the clown's role for Children's Day Celebration at my Alma Mater, KC College NSS Unit's Anandotsav... I never knew it would be so rewarding till the day of performance...


I still remember the first time, in 2008, I walked into our sports room filled with old aged ladies from 'Home for the Elderly', Their smiles and surprised faces seem so fresh in my memory... They clutched my arms and asked the photographer to click snaps, some even asked me to sing a song from 'Mera naam Joker'... Thanked me, asked my name & told me they'd pray for all of us for making their day... That warm feeling sank in so well, making someone like me feel all butter... Not to mention the love showered by the kids, Life never felt so good... So relaxed, So happy that I could just forgive anyone in the world if he asked for it...


And that moment I resolved that, "This one day Vivek Todi shalt not miss as a chance to do good, no matter what." Truly limitless happiness in one day...

Woes of a homesick extrovert...

Back then when I was at home... I always questioned why my buddies changed so much after staying away from home for a long time... Now I realize what it feels like to stay away from... One can call it the aftereffects of Homesickness, But I prefer it calling realization of values...

And this realization is important...

Realizing How much you actually loved your mom's handmade food... Or simply those long talks you had with your father while dinner...

Besides my parents, the other person I miss is my sweetheart kiddo Nicole... Some days back when mom told me she wasn't well... I found myself dreaming about her in sleep and waking up to find dried tears and swollen eyes... There are countless such moments when I find myself thinking bothered n frustrated only cuz I didn't have talk with mom or dad that day...

And It's not just the emotional realization... I'm beginning to realize why is it so important to wait for a bus for 10 mins rather than taking a taxi... And why should I be bothered about food when the sky seems to turn dark... Why is it so important to wash your clothes almost daily, or atleast keep them orderly till the end of the week...

It also explains the reason why I've suddenly begun 'Facebooking' so much... Come on! I need someone to talk to right? You think someone like me can sit and study quietly?? >:)