A new but disillusioning dawn...

There hasn't been such clear mist before... Nor has there been such clarity in my confusion... Sometime back I craved for responsibilities, now I have more than I can take... Do I need a break? No. I've had enough breaks already. I guess its these breaks that make me think that I'm overwhelmed with responsibilities at the moment. And yes, there's always the grief of being left alone without my partner who was always there with me to share my responsibilities...

A close friend said once, "Some people believe in themselves only when Others believe in them." Somehow, he's right... But I guess I'll rephrase it for myself... "I believe in myself only when the people I believe in believe in me."

A new dawn rises... I still still need someone to show me the light...

Where are my colors?

I can't recall how it struck me to do this... But when I saw this pic of mine, I suddenly realised I wasn't there in the pic... Am I lost? I could have processed this pic in 5 mins flat, but something made me work on it slowly, very slowly... I used a small brush size to recreate every color in the picture except my face only to see how all the wonderful colors contrasted with my desaturated face... It made me feel hollow, empty... Am I lost? People say I make them smile... I make them laugh... Where is my laughter? Where has my smile disappeared? There are times when people feel low in their life... When's mine gonna end?